Well today was a little better than yesterday, overall. Lindsay was feeling tired before her treatment started at 9am and I thought that was going to be a sign that we were in for a long day but I was wrong and I’ve rarely been that happy to say that; I say it enough to Lindsay! 🙂 She started her treatment right on time today which has been unheard of throughout this whole process. You know how doctor’s offices go, there is a lot of “hurry up and wait” is very fitting for most practices. Anyway, they got her premeds and saline rolling right on time at 9am and started her chemo drugs (Cisplatin) at 10am and the other drug (Etoposide) at 11am which meant she was done shortly after noon! I took an earlier than usual lunch to spend some time with her again which turned out to be a nice surprise, as my Father-In-Law, who I don’t see a lot during the week because we’re both busy with work had stopped by to spend some time with Linds.
Lindsay was in pretty good spirits today, not near as worn down as yesterday, or at least she didn’t show it! When I got home from work at 3 to help run the daycare, she spent most of the afternoon outside with us. I know she was probably pushing herself pretty hard to be out there but it was good to see her up and active still. It always makes me feel better to see her with a smile on her face and the kids know how to do that better than I do some days. After the kids left we got an AWESOME dinner delivered from Linds’ friends Kelli and Nate (THANK YOU!!)–chicken and rice with a mango-tomato-cilantro salsa and avocado to top it off and it was awesome. Not to mention the amazing fruit and yogurt dessert. Anything with mango and spice is a hit with me, as Lindsay would let you know. 🙂
After dinner I got to experience something that both Lindsay and I have been waiting for about 25 weeks now, I not only got to see my son visibly kicking from inside the womb but I got to actually FEEL HIM FINALLY! 😀 It was seriously one of the coolest things I’ve experienced in life and it makes it seem all the more real! It was an incredibly special and humbling moment for me and put everything into perspective. Mostly how amazing the woman carrying my son it. She’s dealing with pregnancy, chemo, shaving her beloved hair off and the stresses of running her own business without batting an eye. Let me just say this one more time for the record: my wife is a badass.
After I finally calmed down from the elation of feeling my son for the first time, we decided to watch a few shows before Lindsay headed to bed. Yep, you guessed it, Guys Grocery Games on Food Network and Brother vs. Brother from HGTV. Lindsay fell asleep shortly after the shows got over and I headed back downstairs to watch some TV, I turned on the Cubbies, as they’re actually watchable this year for the first time in a long time! I’m getting pretty tired as I type this so I don’t think I’ll make it much past the end of the game. Anyway, today was another step forward and one more day in the books on our long journey in beating this disease.
I think I’m going to start ending the blog posts with a quote or message, as I find myself constantly trying to find some to help me try to understand how to get through this journey. Having said that, one that I came across today really jumped out at me and reminded me to slow down a bit.
“Enjoy the little things in life because one day you’ll
look back and realize that they were the big things.”
It couldn’t be more true either, could it? As I write these blogs posts it’s always a reminder that this quote is dead on. Each time I think back on the day and try to find the happiness in our days, it’s always the silly little things. The misplaced laugh, the unprovoked smile, seeing your son kick from inside your wife, holding your loved one’s hand as you lay down in bed to watch TV together, having your 94 lb chocolate lab paw at you as you type to let you know that you’re not petting her enough. It’s always the silly little things that make the most lasting memories, funny how life works like that, huh? This quote reminds me to slow down, find the little things in this journey that make us all happy and focus my energy on that instead of the rest that can seem overwhelming at times.
A quick story to exemplify this happened to me this morning I didn’t know then that this would end up being the closing message of this blog post but life works in funny ways like that. As I ordered my breakfast at the cafeteria grill at work today I walked up and Javier threw my breakfast on the grill, already anticipating my order. Yeah, I’m on a first name basis with the grille cook because I’m kind of a big deal. 😛 Javier cooked up my order and as I waited patiently for him to plate my food and send it over the counter to me so I could wrap it in foil and take it to my desk, a woman walked up next to me to place her order. She ordered some eggs, bacon and toast-I know that seems like I’m getting way to detailed, as Lindsay reminds me often, it actually plays significance in this story. Anyway, her toast was put into the commercial rotating toaster, like you’d see at some resorts or restaurants. Her toast popped out as I was about to get my order when the woman helping get her order placed it on her plate. The woman then announced very loudly “That’s not toast! That’s half bread and half toast, you need to do both sides!” The woman helping her looked confused and proceeded to throw the toast out and start two new pieces for this woman. The angry woman then turns to me and says “You better have her toast yours again, otherwise you’ll have the same thing wrong with yours.” Usually I’m not a very rude person but people being rude to service people (e.g. waiters/waitresses/cooks) really grinds my gears (in my Peter Griffin voice) so I very quickly replied to her “It’s ok, it’s just toast, I think I’ll be just fine.” and walked away from her. Looking back on it now, I’m even more glad I said what I said, maybe that woman will realize how insignificant toast is in her life and rethink her attitude. Or maybe she’s the damn toast monster and toast really is that important to her…in that case, it was a lost cause from the start. 😛
Life is special but it is short. Spend it with those you love and surround yourself with positivity, anything other than that is a waste of your time. Spend the time noticing the small things in life, they will always add up to be the biggest and most beautiful things. One more day of treatment to go this cycle and Linds will have whooped another cycle’s butt! 😀
There’s that theme again; one day at a time…